11 Blasts

C.C...RM won't allow me to donate them to another woman/couple in an open ID situation and so I'm stuck.

On this very blog I said CLEARLY many, many times that I would NOT NOT NOT think anything of donating any residual embryos forward.  And, you know what, I don't.  But I will admit that after having my daughter, I feel a strong responsibility towards those 11 clumps of cells I created and I simply cannot will not give them to someone anonymously risking the possibility that our children will never know their full siblings.

That I cannot do with a clear conscience.  Yes, I would rather donate them to research.

I don't feel like their mother, I feel like their guardian - that I am to ensure they're placed into the hands of good people.  And other than maybe "friends" on Fa..ce..bo.ok and sharing some pictures here and there, that's it.  I don't want to dictate to those parents what's right for they and their children.  I merely want to make every effort possible that my beautiful little lady will have the opportunity to know her siblings - at some point that everyone is comfortable with.

Maybe that's fucked up and asking too much.  I don't know. 

By the way, here's the latest pic - waiting at doctor's office, she decided to put on my glasses and organize the contents of my purse. 

Is she beautiful, or what?  :)

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