So, I have been dreading the registry. I don't know why exactly but a couple of reasons come to mind. I'm still in the danger zone (27 weeks) and maybe I just don't want to seem silly if catastrophe happens. But that's really the minor point. I'm a freak! I hate Ba.bi.e.sR.Us and baby departments in general. It's overwhelming to me - sensory overload, I think.
I've changed all of the toilets in my house by myself - no problem. Sinks, tiling, laminate "wood" flooring - done, done and done. I took care of my mom while she died of cancer - hard as hell, but I did it. And I've given myself hundreds of sub-q and intramuscular needles throughout the IVF process. I'm independent and I guess I realized recently that I really like being "in control" and able to take care of myself. But when I walk into baby mega store, I feel like I'm on the moon, building an eco-friendly human habitat with no scientific experience. I get a pang of anxiety and, really, I just want to leave and avoid the whole thing.
Well, some friends have been hounding me about doing the registry for an office shower and a shower from my small group of personal girlfriends. I confessed to two of my friends that I just had trouble with the store and they eagerly volunteered to come with me - and make it a girl's afternoon. So we did - two Saturdays ago.
And what did the UPS man bring to my door? A huge box and a little box. Hmm...I hadn't ordered anything, so I was wondering...What did I find when I opened it? My changing pad and the softest cover - both from my registry. From my family? Nope. From my closest girlfriends IRL? No. My very first baby gift EVER came from Me - someone who's come to my rescue (with a little help from her mister) before and been so kind to me. I loved meeting her in Denver during our coinciding trips and just talking. She's the kind of person I generally gravitate to - honest (even brutally so, which I adore), kind, highly intelligent and the kind of person you know instantly is all substance and zero bullshit - all the things I find comforting and refreshing.
So...Me...I thank you and thank you some more for being so generous and doing such a sweet thing. I'm not a highly sensitive person but - hormones, ya know - I welled up when I saw your name on the paperwork. And please remember that when you're in central NJ for a business trip, we're meeting up for a couple of drinks on me!
This IF blogging community has been such a positive experience for me. :)
7 comments:
Put those anti-gravity boots on sister. You're building that habitat and it's going to be great. So sweet to get a gift delivered from the blogosphere. Enjoy!
I confess to registry stalking you for several weeks. And I figured these are things that are nice to have for the room sooner than later!
BTW - you are too kind to me. And for the record, you are a helluva a woman yourself. I'm in awe of your strength and independance. You are the kind of woman I aspire to be. Truly. You are going to be an amazing parent!
Yay for gifts!! You're getting closer!!
I actually didn't go to a BRU until my little guy was about 4 months old - I really just couldn't face it, even WITH a baby. I did all of my research online and did an Amazon wish list, which lets you add things from other sites, too. If you end up wanting things from the non-BRU realm, it's super-convenient.
Glad you're getting things ready now! It seems like forever but then suddenly time is flying by!
(loss men'td) First time poster here! Very excited for you, and I hear you about BRU and BBB. We are pg with twins via a surrogate, due in January and are waaaay too cautious to go anywhere near a baby store after a terrible loss and 11 IVFs, so I hear you! But I know it's a necessity, and to be honest, I am excited to actually do something normal people do. But I'll wait, as well. And congrats on getting your first gift! I also read ME's blog - she's great!
Hey Sky, I hope you are doing well. I know you're not updating lots, but I do keep you in my thoughts. Post a belly pic if you can! Take care and post soon.
yeah for gifts and cyberspace! I am reading your blog. My FSH is 16 and I am in my 30s I have been freaking out and just completed my first IVF cycle today with an ET. I hope and pray it works out, but I am nervous to say the least. I'll be reading! Feel free to read mine as well!
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